But it feels weird to be part of the burlesque community, which is all about body positivity, and feel like I’m not happy with my body right now.
About 5 or 6 years ago, I hit my scary weight. But I didn’t change anything, and then I hit my new scarier scary weight. And then I finally did something. I started counting calories in and calories out using MyFitnessPal, which was an eye-opener and I made some changes. And then I got super into running and joined various running clubs and ran all the races, including a marathon, and lost like 30 pounds and multiple dress sizes.
And that was 4 years ago.
Since then, I’ve struggled with runners knee, I moved out of the south suburbs, and the combo of the two meant I never got into a groove with another running club or group run. I signed up for another marathon but couldn’t overcome the knee pain and didn’t run it.
And I got into the burlesque scene, which has been so fun and awesome, but it’s not a workout like running is, and it takes up a bit of time, and yeah, so I haven’t been working out as much as I’d like to be.
But I’m still eating like I am.
So, you know … pretty typical story. And there’s only one person who can turn this story around, so I need to figure out how to do that. My knee might still give me pain if I try to go back to running like I was. I was getting into ClassPass and that was fun, but then they changed their pricing structure and I switched from unlimited classes to 5 classes per month, and then they changed their ambassador perks, and I decided not to renew my membership after this cycle runs out. I’ve also been really enjoying yoga lately, which again, isn’t a workout like running is, but is something that if done regularly, might really be beneficial to my running.
So, this is all to say that while I haven’t been blogging as much lately, but I’m going to try to start blogging more, if for no other reason that to hold myself, and my workouts accountable. I don’t want to beat myself up over my body, but I’m not happy with where I’m at right now. I don’t necessarily need to chase a certain weight, or dress size, but I do want to be healthier, stronger, fitter, faster.