Keeping It Real

I’m feeling burnt out. (Burned out? Whatever.)

I’ve maxed out my vacation time. I’ve never done that before. (Because at past jobs I could cash out unused vacation time, so I did that instead of taking all of it. Can’t cash it out here.) But basically, I don’t remember the last time I took a legitimate vacation. Other than long weekends with friends, the last time my husband and I got away together was for our 4th anniversary (we’ve been married for 8 1/2 years).

I’m heading back to Boston next weekend for my best friend’s wedding and I can’t really muster any excitement for it. And I need to. I’m the Best Woman.

I have a burlesque performance on Friday and I’m just like … oh yeah I have that … instead of feeling excitement.

I’m barely working out because I’m working late or if I do get up early, it’s to get to the office early.

Honestly, the only excitement I feel right now is the thought of starting a master’s program this winter, although I have no idea how to pay for it. Tuition benefits cap out pretty quickly. And I’m sure graduate school wouldn’t exaggerate my burn out, nope, not at all.

So. There’s that.

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9 Comments on “Keeping It Real”

  1. *hugs*

    Definitely been there. Constantly. Just about a week ago, most recently. But you’re a strong enough personality who enjoys her life too much – this will pass. You’ll find a way to generate that excitement and enthusaism again because it’s what you DO! Just remember to take a few minutes each day to close your eyes and take a few deep breaths. Hang in there!

  2. *hugs*! And this too, shall pass. Stay strong. But if you think something might be off physically or chemically, doesn’t hurt to get it checked out. Maybe some fall fatigue going on?

  3. This is pretty much how I’ve been feeling lately. I’ve had a draft post about it saved for a while but can’t even get around to finishing it. Blah.

    Are you seriously starting school? That may help if it’s something you’re excited about.

  4. I’m so sorry. That totally sucks. I felt very similarly earlier this year when I was studying for that exam. As I didn’t pass, it felt like it was all for nothing. But then I went and got knocked up so my focus totally shifted. Sometimes a healthy distraction can be just the thing needed to get out of that funk. Maybe grad school would be it?

  5. I totally understand the feeling. I’ve been feeling similarly for the last several months, too. I’m still trying to figure out what to do next. Honestly, it sounds like work is a big source of frustration for you. Since you’re working so much, it’s taking you away from working out and other things you usually enjoy, which sucks. We can talk about this more next week at Opart Thai…

    1. Being nosy… when are you going to Opart? That’s right in my old ‘hood (on my old run route, no less!) 🙂

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