I don’t post as much in this blog anymore. There are a variety of reasons. I haven’t been running as much. The stuff I have been doing isn’t running-related, and while this is my blog and I can post whatever I want, it’s a running blog and I’m assuming most of my readers initially came here for running. I’ve been going through a lot of personal stuff that I don’t feel like talking about on here, at least not yet, if at all. (But it’s all turning out sunshine and rainbows, so don’t worry about me.)
When my knee started bothering me, not only did that affect my running, but it affected dancing. I was just starting to get back into dancing – I guess at the sake of running. There are only so many hours in a day, and I learned a few years ago that when I try to pursue all of my interests at once (running, dance, soccer, music, among other things), I end up sucking at all of them and nothing is fun. So I know that I can only really get into one or two things at a time. I spent a couple of years really focused on running, and got a lot faster and ran a lot of races, including a marathon, and that was a lot of fun! I made a lot of friends through running, people I consider more than just “running friends.”
But lately I’ve been itching to do other stuff. I started getting back into dance, and had one performance and remembered how much I enjoy performing. But I was registered for a marathon, and my knee was getting funky, so for the sake of my marathon bib, I stopped taking dance classes. Then my knee got worse and I focused on getting better. (And as you know if you’ve been reading, I still didn’t run the marathon.)
Now my knee is “better” enough that I don’t have weekly PT appointments and I don’t have any doctor’s appointments on my calendar. I’m “cleared” to do what I want, and obviously I want to be smart. But I want to dance. I mean, I want to run, but I really want to dance.
I took a dance workshop yesterday. (To prepare for an upcoming performance! SO EXCITED! But I’ll feel better about it after another rehearsal.) My knee is still emo. I had to treat it a little gingerly. I’m glad that this routine will be done barefoot because I don’t really want to risk dancing in heels.
The other obstacle is that like anything, dancing costs money. Classes cost money. Pasties cost money. (And, uh, dance clothes, when you actually wear them, har har.) We still have the debt monkey on our backs and the holidays are coming and yadda yadda, here we are yet again. Classes will have to wait until they make sense in our budget, and maybe that wait will be better for my knee.
Anywho, this is all a very round-about way to say that I don’t know what to do with this blog, to be honest. It’s not like I’m going to stop running, but I don’t really know how much running defines me anymore, you know? Is running a big enough part of my life that I feel like maintaining a blog with “runner” in the title?
Yes, this is an old pic of me and my bro. I’m still pissed that I seemed to have lost that costume in our various moves.