As many miles as there are in a 50K

That is to say … I’m 31 today.

(I’m just going to apologize to anyone older than me right now.)

It’s funny. I didn’t really mind turning 30 (too much) but for some reason, 31 sounds so much older. You hit the big milestone birthday. Now it’s a full year later.

Whatever. You’re only as old as you feel, right?

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And honestly, I feel pretty damn great.

But I feel like I’m going in reverse. The older I get, the less settled I want to be. For many of my friends, getting married, buying a house and starting a family are long behind them. They now have children in kindergarten, and/or they are on baby #2 or #3. Some have already finished their first marriages. (That’s a nice way to say I have more than one friend who is “my age” who has gotten a divorce.)

And yet, I still feel so far away from all that. Maybe it’s because after years of feeling stuck in the suburbs, paralyzed by debt and/or living in someone else’s house, I finally feel so free, like I’ve been let out of my cage. We have our own apartment again. Everything I want is just an L or cab ride away. I can afford to spend (some) of my money again. On fun things. When our lease ends, we can move to another neighborhood. We can get a place that is bigger or smaller, or has different (or more) amenities. And why would I want to change that? Maybe after a year or two, enjoying this freedom will be out of my system and I’ll want to “settle.” Or not. Whatever. I’m a modern woman.

(But there are moments when I’m like “ermagerd babiezzzzz.” They are still fleeting.)

I’ve been posting to this blog a lot less lately. Maybe you’ve noticed. (If not, no biggie.) Given the name of this blog, I try to focus on running, or significant/interesting other topics. And this year, running definitely took a backseat to other priorities. And lately, I’ve wanted to keep a lot to myself. Or I’ve had things on my mind that I don’t feel like sharing with total strangers and/or people who know me off the blog. Or I’ve been busy doing things more important than blogging. Or I just didn’t feel like running writing. (Wrote “running,” meant “writing,” but my running has decreased too.) Seeing as how this blog isn’t my job, I try not too think too hard about it. If I have something to share, I’ll write. If I don’t feel like sharing, I don’t write. Am I done with blogging? I’ve been thinking about that, but damnit, I paid for my hosting for another 1.5-2 years or something.

Anyway. Some highlights of 30.

I ran 18 races. OY. That included my first marathon and my first relay.

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I reduced the amount of time I spend commuting per day from 4 hours to about 1.5 hours.

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I swapped this for that when it comes to my typical running spot.

todays' run #latergram #runCHI #runCARA two weeks to #RnRCHI Old Plank Road Trail

And I did a bunch of other stuff, but I have to save some things for my 2013 in Review post, right?

I have a feeling 31 is going to be a great year.

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28 Comments on “As many miles as there are in a 50K”

  1. Happy, happy, happy birthday, Maggie!!! Can’t wait to celebrate with you and the other WRCE members tonight at Anne’s shin-dig!!!

    And I totally relate to how you feel about going in reverse when it comes to aging. I, too, am loving the city life and the thought of having kids right now scares me… but meanwhile I’ve got many friends my age who have multiple kids (some of whom are starting HIGH SCHOOL this year) and/or are going through divorces already. I say that we all live our lives the way we want to – and when the time is right for us to take the next step, we’ll do it then. Stop and smell the roses, right? =)

    See you tonight!

  2. Happy Birthday!!!

    I hope you don’t feel “bad” about going in reverse! You are living your life the way you want to! I am the same way, except I prefer to be “stuck” in the suburbs 😉 “Settling” is over rated. Or at least, the majority of society’s definition of it. It sounds like you are settled in your new (happy) place and that is awesome 🙂

    I have noticed you’ve been posting less. That you wrote about it makes me wonder if that makes you feel bad or something… these are our blogs to do with what we want, just like our lives! LOL! Write/don’t write, whatever! 🙂 We will still be here when you want to share something 🙂

  3. Happy birthday! I hope you keep posting, though I definitely understand the urge to be quiet/keep things private. My birthday is Saturday and I’m turning the age at which I’d always imagined I’d be/have x, y, and z (whatever, standard things, a great job, still in a big city, be married, etc.) but IN FACT I am newly unemployed, recently moved to a small town in the South, and still dating. I am obviously okay with it, but also, I can’t help but feel I’m letting my younger self down in some way.

    1. the only “milestone” I ever gave myself was “maybe I’ll start thinking about marriage when I’m 30.” and then I ended up getting married at 24. so I guess the lesson is, don’t set too many goals and you won’t disappoint yourself! 🙂

  4. Happy Birthday!!! I really like reading all these “life change” posts, I think you should write more about it, even though this is a “running” blog it’s interesting and many of are can relate to your story!

  5. Happy Birthday! I’m sure 31 will be great. I like the idea of just taking each day/month/year as it comes and enjoying what evolves. As long as you are happy doing what you’re doing, right?

  6. Happy birthday! I have a feeling 31 will be a hell of a year for you! You did so many amazing things at 30, and have a wonderful outlook on life. And ps. Don’t ever “settle.” 🙂

  7. Happy birthday! I have to say, the 30s have just gotten progressively more awesome with each year, so I’m sure 31 will be great for you.

    Nothing wrong with feeling less settled as you get older. We all have our own personal trajectories and it would be a huuuge mistake to alter what feels right to you just because others are going about things differently!

  8. Happy 50k! 🙂 It’s funny that you say 31 feels significant, I thought it was SO uneventful after all the build-up to 30.

    It is hard to write about stuff like that, but I’m glad you mentioned the feeling of not wanting to settle down. I’ve had similar thoughts, basically since I got married. I’m really happy with my life right now, but actually saying things like “I don’t want kids now/yet/maybe ever” is really hard to do. I’m glad you’re in such a good place right now, and as long as you’re happy, why not keep enjoying your life the way it is?

  9. Happy Birthday! I might do the Lakefront 50K next year too, just got to get through that marathon first. Hope 31 is as great or better than 30!

  10. Happy (belated) birthday! It’s true what they say – you’re only as old as you feel – but sometimes that pesky number is truly terrifying. This rings especially true when you start comparing yourself to where others are at your age. Like you, I am far from where many are now at my age. But hey, this is YOUR life and you live it how YOU want and at whatever pace YOU want. This life is so extraordinary, so why try to squash it down and make it fit into the ordinary “___ years old” mold (if that makes sense)? You’re at a great place so soak it all up before all those other commitments-that-should-not-be-named come into the picture.

    And on a final note – I love reading your blog so if you’re ever more inclined to write about anything related to your life (and not just running) I’ll be here reading it all 🙂

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