One of my Worst Fears

Whenever I have a long commute, one of my fears is pondering what would happen if I got sick at work. First of all, how terrible would that be regardless of your commute? But more importantly, how will I get home?

Yesterday I was, erm, lucky enough to find out.

I’ll spare you the lovely details.

But my no-fainting streak (since 2001) is over. This is only the 5th time I’ve fainted, and there are usually a few years in between, but this was the longest stretch of not fainting.

But I fainted, I vomited, and now how the heck was I going to get home? I could barely get up off the floor. There was no way I was going to drive the 50 miles myself.

Luckily, my husband was able to leave work early, take a train up to my office (he takes the train to work), and drive us home. Despite the snow storm, the roads weren’t bad and traffic actually seemed lighter. And I didn’t get sick in the car. (We have not always been so lucky … the last time I got a stomach bug was almost six years ago, and we were at his parents house. He had to drive me home. I had a bucket in my lap. Which I used.)

If you’ve never fainted … it’s the worst feeling. You feel like your body is revolting against you. Because it basically is. You lose control of your body. You’re dizzy. The world gets fuzzy. You break out in this awesome cold, clammy sweat … and then you black out, only come to, on the floor. I realized yesterday that I start dreaming when I pass out. So you’re disoriented from coming to in the middle of a dream, and then you have to reconcile the fact that you’re lying on the floor of the bathroom at work. (Or wherever you fainted.) And you still feel all weird.

So today I’m recovering. I’m chalking up this one to a stomach bug. Even though I’ve never fainted during or leading up to a stomach bug. There’s a first time for everything, right? So between feeling depleted from everything that comes with a stomach bug, and being a little freaked out from the fact that I fainted, I’m taking it easy. I’m a little disappointed though, I thought fainting was behind me. However, given my track record (5 times in almost 20 years), I can probably consider myself “safe” for a few years. I hope. I just pray that I never faint on a train. I have an even bigger fear of being the “medical emergency” that delays all the Metra trains during rush hour.

Oddly enough, Sierra just posted about how she didn’t faint recently … so … I guess I took one for the team? Ha ha. But it’s nice to know I’m not alone.

But, now I know, getting sick at the office is pretty awful, but my sweet husband will come get me. I can only imagine how pathetic I looked when he got there, and I was lying on the floor of my office. And then saying “hold on, I want to try puking one more time.”

I’ll leave you this …. what I sing whenever I need to go to my “happy place.”

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31 Comments on “One of my Worst Fears”

  1. Ugh, so sorry that happened at work. When I was pregnant I often wondered what I’d do if I went into labor 20 miles from home. Luckily that didn’t happen..

    One of the 3 million times I’ve been sick this year, I had a fainting spell and almost dropped the baby. (But I’m glad to say we’re still maintaining a 0% drop rate in this house. Yeah!) Definitely a horrible feeling. Hope you’re doing better and resting up today.

  2. No fun! Sorry you fainted. I’ve never fainted but I’ve almost many times while giving blood…and yes, that is definitely not a good feeling. Obviously really fainting is much worse!! LOVE your happy place song. It’s much better when I try to go to my happy place…which weirdly enough is the Flintstones (??)…but then inevitably a dinosaur comes and wipes out the whole town! So much for my happy place…

  3. I know the feeling…I have had to leave work early and ride the Metra home while sick. Disgustingly, I have had to puke in the restroom on Metra —> one of my life’s lowest moments.
    Feel better soon!

    1. Unfortunately the Metra line I take to get home only has bathrooms on some of the cars. Many of the trains use the old cars with no bathrooms. Which resulted in a really funny story for one of my friends when she was drunk had had to pee really bad on the way home … the conductor just had her use a garbage can, and it sounds like it wasn’t the first time. SO … it could always be worse.

  4. Oh man! What a horrible experience. I’ve only ever almost fainted once (when I cut myself pretty badly) so I can only imagine what it would be like to really faint AND be sick to my stomach. I’m happy your husband was able to come get you so you didn’t have to lay on the floor at work for the rest of the day!

    I hope you’re home laying in bed now. Maybe Olive can get you ginger ale and Saltines? 🙂

  5. …you know we’re all going to think you’re pregnant now, right?
    Just kidding. I mean, unless you are. In which case, congratulations!
    Either way, feel better. Yuck.

    1. Haha, yeah, my husband’s co-worker is apparently certain that I am. But I’m pretty certain this was a stomach bug. I left out certain details from my post that would indicate it’s definitely stomach stuff and not uterus stuff …

  6. My mom passed out on the Metra and was one of those “medical emergencies”…She couldn’t believe it happened. I fainted with Maya once and I woke up to her clutching my shirt and screaming my name like an old Hollywood film. So surreal. Feel better Mags, and let’s make the rest of 2013 Faint-Free!

  7. Gosh hope you’re feeling better! Getting really sick at work is one of my fears too- and especially how to make it home in that weakened state (and my commute is a mile- cant imagine yours!)

    I fainted once because I was so sick and hasn’t eaten anything for days. I just remember putting down my hit chocolate and falling into my rabbits cage. Still have a small scar.

    Take care of yourself and feel better soon!

    1. If I was that close I guess I would just take a cab. Or have a co-worker drive me home.

      I’m glad that except for the very first time I fainted (when I broke my nose), I haven’t had any injuries in the times since.

  8. Oh I hope you feel better. I live alone in a city with no family nearby. I had a similar fear when the stomach bug and flu were going around my school. Luckily I avoided it for now. Get rest & feel better.

    1. You feel a little weird immediately after … maybe more weirded out. And then take it easy afterward. But you’re pretty much fine once you come to. I think for me I just really needed to puke which is why I still felt so weird.

  9. Thank heavens your husband was here to pick you up and it didn’t happen a few weeks ago! I feel awful when I have to take the train home from the city because I am sick. It would’ve been hellish for you! 🙁 I hope you are feeling better!

  10. Oh my gosh I’m so sorry to hear you went through this 🙁 I know this happened a few days ago and I really hope you’re feeling much much better now! Fainting is pretty scary – your entire body goes limp and you land un-cushioned on the ground. It happened to me once, oddly enough in the morning after a night of drinking, and I made the biggest thud my family ever heard. Hey, at least it’s Friday and you have the entire weekend to relax!

  11. Ohno!! Certainly by now you are feeling better, fainting is definitely no fun! The fuzziness is the worst! It’s like you know what’s about to happen two seconds after it starts, and there is just nothing you can do to stop it. Glad you made it home clean! I once tossed my cookies into a plastic grocery bag in a car. Ewwwww. The driver made me pledge never to speak of it to her again. Hahaha.

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