I feel like I’ve been focusing on everything that sucks lately (running sucks, living with my parents sucks, my commute sucks, I’m tried all the time, etc), I need to refocus on what’s good in my life. (This probably won’t become a weekly thing, I just need this right now.)
Case in point:
Anyway, enough with the negativity!!!
Among the usual “my husband and my family,” I’m thankful for …
Running friends. They keep listening to me complain and keep trying to cheer me up, reminding me of how it’ll all be worth it on marathon day (or they’ll buy me a beer), etc. But they also tell me that what I’m feeling is totally normal, and/or they went through it too, etc.
Flexibility at work. Yes, my commute is terrible (four hours/day by train). But I can work remotely sometimes. Problem solved.
Seeing fireworks. We didn’t go to a fireworks show on the 4th of July. We saw a lot of fireworks as we were driving through Indiana, but no sitting-on-a-blanket show for us. However, my sis-in-law helped organize a local community fest during Labor Day weekend, and it concluded with a fireworks show. Stuff blowing up! Yay!
Sort of mastering how to be a pin-up. That sounds really random, and don’t worry, I’m not quitting my day job. Short story: I’ve done pin-up photos a few times (for my own personal reasons*, not like I’m a model or anything), the third time being this past Saturday at my friend’s bachelorette party. And while I am certainly no expert soon to grace the pages of a pin-up book or calendar [that I don’t make myself through Shutterfly], I’m at least getting better at it. (Which is good, because it costs money, and frankly, who wants to look at pictures of your own failed sexy faces? It’s the classic “what I think I look like / what I really look like” situation.)
White background: First time doing pin-up photos in 2009. That was one of my best faces. The rest from that shoot just look awkward. My best shots were the ones where I’m not looking at the camera.
Black background: Most recent attempt last Saturday. Much less awkward. (I’m sure the sangria helped … whatever works, right??)
*Personal reasons being:
#1 My friends like to do it, and it’s a fun thing to do together. (Some of these friends [not me] have also performed burlesque in public.)
#2 When I’m 80, I want to look back and remember how hot I was. Even my mom has done some version of pin up photos. (Oh God, reason #230498 that illustrates I’m turning into my mother … )
My legs. Helloooo, 20+ miles/week for the past year.
OK this is getting a little too “I’m so hot, look at me” so time to wrap it up before my head gets too big.